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New Years Resolutions

Ah, the new year. I look forward to this time, it's a wonderful way to just refresh and start again. The new year brings hopes and anticipations and of course, resolutions. We all make them, every year, same old same old. "Fitness" "Being a better me" "Working on relationships" whatever they are for you. Then and soon as January passes, we let them go slack. Well, I personally have made it a pointed determined decision in my mind to NOT do that this year. I AM going to stick to my plans and resolutions. Yes, yes, I know we all say that every year too. "This is going to be my year!" yeah yeah yeah. Well, I want to give you a few practical ways to actually stick to your goals this year.

1. Expect difficulty. This sounds easy, right? But one of the main reasons we give up on our goals so quickly is we screw up once and then give up on the entire resolution. For example, say I want to eat healthy this year and then I go and have a total cheat da…

And Now I Do What's Best For me

Today I had to make a hard decision that affected me and my happiness. I had been thinking about it all week and I just felt like I had to do what I knew in my heart I needed.  I've been going through a lot recently. To explain a little of my life so as not to bore you, I am an actress and a dancer and a crazy theatre person. I've been doing theatre with my independent troupe for nine years now, i choreograph our musicals and I directed our fall play this year. I also did a ballet in the fall and today I was going to audition for our one-act ballet that my dance studio does in the spring but I, needless to say, had a breakdown and just couldn't do it. I need a break. I knew I had been pushed to my limit emotionally and physically. I couldn't do it. And so even though I knew I might regret it, I made the decision not to do it. I didn't make a brash, all of the sudden decision. This thought had been weighing on my mind all week. I knew what I had to do and I felt lik…

Motivation vs. Determination

Okay, let's get something straight here. Motivation is useless. Well, maybe not completely useless. But pretty darn unimportant.

Us humans reach and search for that sensation of "motivation" as we call it. The feeling of greatness and ability to do things, feeling productive and accomplished. But that's all it is, a sensation. And it comes and goes. We can't rely on it. And sometimes we search for it and it doesn't come at all. That's where determination comes in.
The difference between Motivation and Determination is: motivation is a feeling, determination is an action.
Determination is basically when we do something whether we want to or not. We do it because we know we need to or we should. Determination is a strength. An inner strength.A willpower. Obligation. Discipline. You have to train yourself to be determined and disciplined. So even when you don't feel motivated to do something you still do it because you are determined. It's all about …

Don't Compare Your Story to Someone Else's

Our culture has confined us to one chapter of our story. What I mean is, we get so focused on this moment and making it perfect and trying to be like other people who seem like they have it all together we forget that this journey we're on takes time and that we're all going at different paces.
We forget to write our own stories. We forget that we have our own lives. We forget that we can do things and have adventures and go places and change the world. I don't know if anyone else feels me on this but like with social media and youtube and everything it makes it twice as hard to not look at others and sigh at ourselves and our progress.
 I tend to watch other people's videos and their thrilling lives and watch them travel and have the perfect closet and all the right outfits and flawless makeup and hair and I forget that I have my own life, I can do those things in my life if I want to.  I have permission to be original and permission to write my own story and be diff…


Ahh October, everyone's favorite month, or well, at least mine. With the autumn spirit coming at us in full force: lattes, sweaters, falling leaves, boots, why not  take the time to make even more out of this month.  This month I have dedicaated to be my "Self-improvement month" or my "Shape up month".  I've been having some funks receently, and I feel like I havn't really been paying attention to my self, how i'm treating myself, how I respond, how I really feel. So just as I am doing. I want to challange you to take this month into your hands, don't waist it and pay attention. Keep alert. Don't fall sleep. Literaly. *note to self don't take so many naps. Shape up. Be the better you. Don't just settle for "okay" make this month great. Pay attention to yourself and how your feeling. Write down your goals and you thoughts. 
A great way to step back is to start meditating. Now i know a lot of people feel deferently about medi…

"Love without Reason, Bloom without Season"

The other day I read that quote, "Love without Reason, Bloom without season." by Debasish Mridha for the first time. I didn't really understand what it meant but had set it as my wallpaper on my phone. Today, it hit me.

Currently, I'm dealing with a situation with some friends of mine, which I won't go into detail about. But after thinking and praying immensely about it, I unlocked my phone and there it was, that quote starring me in the face. And it clicked.

Bloom without season, be the best you can be no matter what is going on around you, no matter what your circumstances are. Live up to the potential that God has for you. He knows that you can do SO MUCH if you just try. Strive every single day. Don't let even one day go by where you didn't do something that you know was worthwhile.

Love without Reason. No matter what someone's flaws are, treat them right. Treat them fairly. Even if they annoy you with their attitude or something. That is not your jo…

Be Kind to Everyone

Lately, I've been struggling to find what to write about. The words just haven't seemed to flow.
 I sit in a quiet place, at a table in the library. There is an older lady sitting in a rocking chair near me with her earbuds in staring out at the world. And I can't help but wonder about her. She seems to quiet and simple. But once and awhile she'll look my way with such a look of pleading. So I prayed for her. And it reminded me of something someone once taught me.

Be kind to everyone. You never know what someone might be going through. Even if they aren't nice to you, or they seem like a slut or whatever. You really don't know much about them. Since we're approaching back to school season, I know there can be a lot of bullies or people who just seem to hate everything. Be kindest to them. They are the people who need it most. How you act can truly affect people, words are powerful tools that can be used to build or destroy. You have the potential to make so…

You Are Where You Need To Be

This photo has been my lock screen on my phone for awhile. And I just wanted to share this. 

No matter where you are in life, no matter what you're doing. There is good. No matter how unworthy you feel, or you feel like you need more things to be a better/more liked person. You are exactly where you need to be. Doing what you need to be doing. You have purpose. Everything that is put in your life is a chance to do something great, be someone's sunshine, become stronger. Be comfortable and content with where you have been put. There's a reason for everything. And God won't let you down.

Don't wish to have better or nicer things, don't waste time trying to make things "perfect". You don't need to be "tumblr" or "goals" etc. You are where you need and to be and you are who you need to be at this time in this moment. I so often get caught wishing for a nicer house, better clothes, more more more. But I have to remind myself that I …

What do you think about yourself?

What would it be like if you were someone else looking at yourself? Have you ever wondered that? I know I have. How weird would it be to be someone else looking at you? What would you think of yourself?

What I want you to do today is take a piece of real paper and a good old fashioned pencil and write down what you think about yourself. Not what anyone else says, not what you want to be like or should be like, you most likely already know that.
Write honestly what you like about yourself and what you don't like. Divide the paper into two categories, "Wonderful" and "Needs Work"

 Rule 1 is: For every 1 thing that is negative there must be 2 positive. So, in the end, you should have twice as many good things as not so good things.

 Rule 2 is: Write things down as quickly as possible. Set a timer even if you need to. This helps you get everything out without spending a whole lot of time.

Rule 3 is: Be Honest.

Now, try it! And see how you feel afterward.


You Will Never Be "Ready"

You know what,
 I don't care who you are or where you are but if you are letting other people tell you who you are, that is not right. You define yourself. You choose who you are. You can create the life you dream of, you can have the career that you want, you can be the person you aspire to be. Do not EVER let other people tell you who you are. You do you. Be bold. Wear what you want to wear, do what you want to do, eat what you want, go where you want. Don't let the world keep you stuck in a tiny box. There is so much you could do if you just went for it. You'll be afraid of course, we all are, being scared is part of the process. Taking risks is part of it.
 Let me just tell you something someone else taught me, YOU WILL NEVER BE "READY". We all make that excuse, "well, I'm just going to wait to pursue that until I'm ready."
You. Will. Never. Be. "Ready"
 Face it. You know you won't. I know you won't. I know I won't. Thi…


It's challenge time!! 

This month I challenge you to be more Generous
both in giving your time and your resources. Help the people around you. When they ask for some of your time, don't search for an excuse (i am so guilty of this). We're all busy, but don't ever get too busy to spend time with people, especially friends and family. Time is a gift, use it wisely, but don't be so afraid to give it out. Think of someone other than yourself, and sacrifice. And who knows maybe they will do the same for you someday when you need it.

I hereby challenge you to be more generous, especially with your time.

Do you accept?


I Am Blessed

This past week I have been really realizing more and more how blessed I am. I have got so much in my life that I should be thankful for.

 But of course, I am human so I am always concentrating on the negative things, and how much better my life should be. I feel entitled to perfection. Like I deserve it. Which is absolutely not true. I do not deserve anything. I sin and make mistakes, and hurt things, and am stupid. But in our generation, we are raised to think we are entitled to things ever since we were little. We have to take control of our minds and focus on what's really important. No one wants to live negatively, no matter how much they might think they do, deep down no one wants that. We're not made to live like that either. We have been blessed so much, with even just the little things. Life itself is a blessing.

I am trying more and more to be thankful, and to praise my creator for the things he provides. It is so easy to forget the good things, just like it's eas…


So, earlier today I was going through some old photo's and video's and I realised something more than ever, so I thought I would share.

Living in the moment is SO important.
Nothing is by accident. You met that person for a reason. You did that embarrassing thing for a reason. You lost something for a reason. You grew separate ways with someone for a reason. Nothing you do is every on "accident" even though sometimes it seems that way or we make it seem that way. Everything that happens to you in your life has been preplanned by God. It's mind blowing to think about that. All those funny/embarrassing moments I have in my photo gallery I can not get enough of because they make me laugh and smile. At the time, I thought they were the worst thing ever of course. * sigh * Such a drama queen. But everything I have ever done happened to me for a specific reason and purpose. I think I've talked about this subject recently on my blog, but I wanted to approach it from …

What If You Only Had 2 Weeks to Live?

What if?
The question above where true?
What would that look like? How would you live? What would you do differently?

 I heard someone on a podcast awhile talking about how he knew someone who had been told by their doctor that they only had a few months to live. And it got me thinking, what would that be like for me? For you? What would we do differently if we thought we only had so long to live. I have been in what they like to call a "Slump" recently. I haven't been my normal self, I've been a lot more negative and just unhappy. I haven't been motivated or willing to do anything. But thinking back on this topic broke me free this morning. It caused me to feel nauseous about the way I was acting, especially toward my family. I put things into perspective by asking myself, "If you died next week, would you be happy with your life?" My answer was no. I wouldn't. I wasn't being the person that everything usually sees, I wasn't really sure why…


The past two months challenges have been about bettering yourself and your mind. This beautiful month of May, I feel like it's time to test ourselves. I call it the Trust Challange. This one has only one rule: Whenever anything seems to upset you, unnerve you, freak you out, when something bad happens, even if it's the smallest thing like you drop your coffee cup and it breaks and there's coffee all over the place and you just want to scream and kick something really hard (believe me I've been there wayy to many times) I want you to stop BEFORE you get angry, that's the real ticket here, breath and say "I trust you God." That's all. Say "I trust you God." or if you want it a little more elaborate "I trust you God that the bad things in my life you will use to make me stronger." But the main thing here is "I Trust You." Do you trust him? Do you know that he is with you every step of the way and that he knows all that you …

No Regrets

This is something that I feel very strongly about. Never regretting anything. Regret doesn't change anything. It doesn't make you feel any better. It doesn't help. I know these are all things you've heard before. But once you put these things into action and every time you feel that regret you think theses things it really helps no matter how cheesy it seems, trust me. I struggle with regrets a lot, I used to struggle more but, with everything I have some regrets. When happy things end I regret that they are over for weeks sometimes months or even years. When bad things happen I think up all the possible scenarios in the world of how it could have been better. What I did wrong. I am a very avid thinker. As I think everyone is, but I am one of those people who thinks about every little thing, and I space out and think about life quite a lot. So I am constantly thinking about things in the past. But remembering that the past is the past and it's never going …



Are you ready?

This month's challenge is the "Mindfulness Challenge".
Here's the deal.

The objective of this challenge is for you to Stop. And. Think. Take more time each day with things, don't be so rushed. No matter what you're doing or what you're going through, don't be so frantic. I am guilty of this times a million. But I will be partaking in this challenge right along beside you. Especially because this month I have so so much going on. Spring time is for decluttering. So we are going to declutter our minds. Each morning, take say 5 or more minutes and just sit and think. But here's the thing, you can not think about things that are going to stress you out. Don't think about big tasks, or things you have to get done this week. Take this time to think about yourself, who you want to be today, think about something great that's happened to you recently. Or, if you're having a hard time doing that,…

Easter OOTD

Even though Easter was yesterday, I thought I would still share my easter ootd. =) I went for something a bit more casual. And since it was chilly I wanted to stay warm too. Hence the leggings.
Pink Cardigan: Old Navy
Flower Skirt: Forever 21
Shoes: Top Moda
Headband was from a local handmade shop. (I think)
Hope you had a lovely Easter! <3

Positivity Challenge!

Every month I have decided to some sort of challenge on my blog. So to start the ball rolling......


This month's challenge is the positivity challenge. And since it's spring now, I felt that it was truly appropriate for the air of the season. It's pretty self-explanatory, but what is it is that you can not say one negative thing for a whole week. This is a real doozy. It's hard, yes. But it's so worth it in the end. We don't realise just how much we complain or speak rudely or badly of things or even people. Once you finished this challenge you can continue on with it for another week or stop. Whatever you choose. But the point of this challenge is to get in the habit of staying positive and realizing how much you say that isn't really necessary. This is a super awesome/impacting challenge. And you have officially been DARED to attempt it. Good luck!
Stay Fab - Kimi